Shadowy Tales ..........

I have always enjoyed walking in the coolness of shadows; maybe this is a physical metaphor of a tendency towards not facing up to challenges, self loathing or worse self pity.

I have not written a blog for nearly 8-months, in that time my routine has had enforced change, my environment has changed and doing what inspired me has changed.

In that time my brain muscle has obviously gone into atrophy, the symptoms of which are obviously self pity. No reading, no development nothing has taken place. Such a personality change has been noticeable, especially within my peer group.

I like to think that ‘self help’ was a conduit to helping other people, however, recognising or devouring a literary diatribe of new age thinking from a Western cultural angle, actually made things worse. Instead of turning back to shore, I swam against the tide until I couldn’t take it anymore.

I have been in the water so long my balls are like prunes.

(Not saying these guys and gals are wrong, as there is only one secret and meaning of life, see below........)

The walking in the shadow is an important metaphor, and today did something different, or let’s change that! I did something that used to inspire me. I simply went for a walk. These walks were my ways of running themes and ideas through my mind, to see what would fit when writing.

The shadow walking is a symptom from something I used to do in the past, which was wear sunglasses everywhere. I even used to wear them indoors. I couldn’t even go outside as the light would blind me. I used to get headaches and sunburn.

The decision not to wear sunglasses anymore was a sub-conscious one; however, my baby blues are sensitive to like so my default position was the shadows, or simply not to look towards the sun. The realisation that I was more akin to Vampires probably accentuated my moods. I never liked the sun, and perservered with it too long.

I have always preferred the colder seasons, I find beauty in the landscapes and seasonal changes, as you witness and experience far more. These are where the lessons lie.

I guess if you are only happy in the sun, then in life you are only happy 25% of the time in your life. If you take out sleep then you are only happy 17% of the time in your life.

The odds of being happy are now in my favour once I have taken off my sunglasses, walk in the shadows and appreciate 75% of the seasons.

However, this is not how life should be, walk free all the time, but if the sun’s glare gets too much. Then retreat to the shadows.

Appreciate everything. (wear sunscreen)

Oh, and by the way, the meaning of life was explained by Aristotle thousands of years ago.

“Happiness is the meaning and the purpose of life, the whole aim and end of human existence”

Even if you walk in the shadows .................................................