Journey to my success part 4

“You can’t solve a problem with the same mind that created it” – Albert Einstein


I love the above quote and heard it again last weekend, which actually underlines my life so far and is the my main reason for change. This will be the last blog on my personal story until the next chapter has unfolded.

Last weekend my attendance was required (albeit self driven) for an introductory course into personal coaching. I wanted to see first hand if there were like minded individuals and also if my path is righteous or if I’m strange.

Over the weekend I met some cool people especially Daksha, whom I spent a lot of time with, practicing coaching techniques. She had a great soul and powerful personal energy.

It did confirm one thing to me and is that I am on the right path, the right path for me. The message was positive and the validations received from becoming a trial client overwhelmed me, this inspired me to write the most powerful and specific affirmation for me.

If you could take 1000 self made Billionaires / Multi- Millionaire all of them powerfully affirmed to themselves every day making reference to their goals in the present tense.

So it’s been a long time… I shouldn’t of left you, without a dope beat to step too………………………

Its 2008 the international year of hate, we have all been guilty in the bizarre celebration of the “Paranoid Earth Mardis Gras” I do know what went wrong for me and what caused my behaviour and will talk about that in a moment.

Firstly just think about this for a moment, you are stuck in traffic, cars are bumper-to-bumper, it’s a hot day and it’s just not moving!

What is your emotional state? Could it be Angry, frustrated or a Victim? Is the Government to Blame? Are Terrorists to Blame? Are Unions to Blame? Are lazy road workers to blame? Are Lorry Drivers to Blame?

Well what if I was to suggest that the cause of all the above is not them IT’S YOU! As you are actually contributing to the problem just by being there, if you are not being passive then you are part of the creation of more negative energy which naturally attracts even more.

Would of the Traffic of been there if you were there? The probable answer is YES, but you did have a choice to whether to become part of the problem.

I did one simple thing in 2008 and that was to remove myself from negative influences and just stopped reading Newspapers and watching the News. The purpose of this was not to become ignorant as News in unavoidable, I did however choose to opt out of the hype to frenzy whipped up by the papers just to sell copy.

I still did hear of the credit crunch, Baby P, the various wars but chose not to devour every printed word.

You may think that this is being heartless but let me explain. Ghandi said “Be the change you want to see” to paraphrase this would be put in my terms of living your life simply, without judgement, without fear, without a victim complex and always with the ascent of the positive.

In 2008 this was my big change, and guess what? Not reading about rape, murder, knife crime, credit crunch, Amy Winehouse, Kerry Katona, Iraq War, Drugs, Peaches Geldof actually made me feel better.

Becoming positive is quite addictive and you start to seek out other strange people like you, and guess what there every where! We have a secret hand shake, a club, a Vision Board and we all meet laugh and enjoy ourselves. You are all member’s right?

I do jest but the above is not a bad place to be, however in all seriousness it did trigger my quench for knowledge and have such an extensive personal library and DVD collection all saying the same thing but in a presentation style that my social conditioning would label “uncomfortable”

We do evolve from a culture of maintaining “A stiff Upper Lip” you can imagine the scenario of little Tarquin tucked away in a Harry Potteresque Boarding school being called into the House master’s office. The office is a musky pipe stenched library and the tweed wearing inbred, with a multi coloured handle barred moustache bellows like Brian Blessed after 30,000 woodbines.

He summons the Boy and informs him without even having the decency to look at him that his parents have both died in a car crash and that he is now an Orphan. The boy begins to sob and this raises the ire of the house master who demands that the boy immediately pull him “Pull yourself together lad and go and report to the nurse.

You can see why that maybe the presentation style of Harv T Eker would blow our ordered and repressed minds. (I love Harv T Eker by the way, check out the link http://www.millionairemind.com/ he became a multi millionaire by borrowing $2000 from a visa card, WOW!)

I always had a dream of being a writer but dismissed my dream because have always felt that I was either not good enough or it would displace my role in my peer group.

So what changed in me? Why am I pursuing my life long dream? What helped me release my fear?

I did, because “I think I can” my focus changed from what could happen in the detail to the goal itself, the finish of the goal.

This is simply; VISION, PLAN, PERFORMANCE.

So I am now writing my first book, and the book is live and up to date, as it’s documenting my journey and my principles (all original) the book is self help but very much aimed at the repressed social conditioned British Psyche. It will retain the ingrained cynicism, dry humour and practical tool’s that can be easily used, associated with and finally empathy minus the patronisation.

So where am I? Well I have written the first draft outline and 60% of its actual content. The outline summary is currently on its way to five lucky publishers

Let’s revisit my opening quote from Einstein of all people, if you are long time reader of my blog’s then you know where I’m going with this.
However on this occasion it relates to my personal journey and how my mind has changed. I lost my victim story (Dr Michael Bernard Beckwith) whatever happens its not my fault or anyone else’s fault just focus on the vision, the goal, the outcome, this always comes with a plan and the plan is usually our behaviours to avoid then finally the performance.

My next blog will be on Sunday night, which will be interactive as have been planning an uplifting experiment that hopefully you will all join in and make a success.

Please provide feedback as it really helps, and any topics that you like me to cover then e-mail me on scotteverest@btinternet.com or leave a message on my Facebook Page.

Namaste - The light in me honors the light in you,"

Journey to my Success Part 3

“I think I can” – Watty Piper

Well it’s that time again! Thank you all for your comments and the emotions felt from my postings, I hope the overall feeling left, was that of joy and hope.

All the feedback did remind me on the Rolling Stones Song – “Sympathy for the Devil” and the opening line “Please allow me to introduce myself, I am a man of wealth and taste” (which is also the closing line of Interview of the Vampire – cheap Anne Rice big up)

The song also made the quote that “Made dame sure Pilate, washed his hands and sealed his fate”

These need some explanation, the first line is not of course in context but I associate with it because of my belief in faking it, before making it as it quite presumptuous of me to offer advice and push my thoughts and feelings out there especially on the fear line between Good and Evil most of you would of slid me towards the left hand side when you had to make a snap judgement when gauging my heart and affinity.

I am in love with the thought of being righteous and it’s a nice place to be and the line will continue to play through my mind when offering advice.

The second line is the main body of this post and of course the weakness of an individual when trying to please the masses by going against what he feels is right in his heart or looking for the easy option.

So how is this relevant to my journey towards success?

We all have life changing moments and one of mine was the birth of my daughter Lilith, well to be precise about 3 weeks after her birth.

I was a smoker, and have smoked since a young boy. I remember the day it was Christmas Eve (2007) and was outside having a cheap Mayfair cigarette leaned up against the wall in Jules back garden the only light was a halogen security light from the next door neighbour shone across my eye line. The yellow hue was rippled by fine rain covering all parts of non shadowed space with a static like covering. There was nothing but silence and of the silent raging noise of my mind.

This was an opportune moment for my brain to select a thought track one that would the most appropriate, the thought began the play…. The thought selected was either from a programme / article / person which is now not relevant but it just made that statement and hung there for a few seconds……

“The biggest cause of baby cot death is the chemicals still emitting from the smoker mouth nearly after one hour after exhaling the last drag”

So Christmas Eve 2007 around nine PM, I became a Non Smoker as the desire for my daughter not to die and live a full life was greater than my desire to smoke.

The next act was to throw away the cigarettes and lighter, walk back indoors wash my hands and rinse out my mouth and scrub my teeth.

I have not smoke since that date and calculated that I had actually smoke 2/3rds of my life to that point and the reason that I had not given up till that day was that I never had the desire too.

So if you smoke too much, drink everyday, eat more than you should or do not exercise it is because your desire to stop is not as great as the fear of failing.

So this is the point the biggest difference for me in 2007/8 is that I will no longer focus on failure or to calculate the risk so to reduce the level of failure. I was going to focus on success and if I failure did occur then it will act only as a bump and I would bounce back into focus for success.

You see we all encounter this but how many people when they hit just ONE bump decide that it is too hard and just stop announce to the world that they cannot do it and sulk and return back to the state when they were less judged for that kind of behaviour and that was when they were a child.

So let’s take the idea of becoming a child and apply it to another realisation for me in 2008. I used to get serious frustrated and impatient, strangely enough my Kinesiologist issued this too as a set up statement for my Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT).

I deal with a lot of people day-to-day and I used to let people’s behaviour affect me, I used to have sleepless nights running through the issue and constructing new scenario’s in my mind which made me more angry and frustrated and they haven’t even happened! We talked about this in my last blog “over thinking”

It came to me one night and from that point not lost one moments sleep and think that this was my second revelation of 2008 and Mike Dooley actually puts this best when I received one his wondrous daily emails sign up now http://www.tut.com

“When you can look beneath their behaviour that hurt you, Scott, and you can see the frightened child - it becomes nearly impossible to be angry and carry a grudge.
And you so can.
ILY, the Universe

Besides, Scott, your happiness, abundance, health, and friendships are not dependent on how others behave

As a writer you just can’t add to such a beautiful statement as the one above and I so much enjoy getting these everyday. They arrive on my blackberry between 09:04 -09:43 and my day starts from that point.

The thing is,you can not let behaviour stop you from doing anything you want or desire to do as the feats of man are so magnificent that they actually need the dichotomy of total fear and weakness demonstrated by the majority.

I was reminded not long ago of the children story “The little engine that could” and can relate this story to the strength and determination that my son Johnnie has shown over the years.

It was not than long ago that turning himself onto his front was a celebration event. The fact that he went through his journey of shuffling, sitting up unsupported, to crawling, to cruising and finally taking his first steps at the age of 4.

He was that little blue engine fighting to go up that mountain and he had the heart and vision to just keep going, although it took such a long time in his mind he was saying, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can, I think I can and he did he completed every stage and after every success said “I thought I could”

How many of you out there reading this blog started with I think I can! Then didn’t?

I really would like to hear your excuse why!

Click and watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3_lb_PlJJw

I want you after watching the above video to make a promise to yourself, that every time you think that it is too hard, that you remember that clip and even though Joey had no glasses and could not see, he tripped twice, he had cuts to his knees that at least he finished the race.

So what is your excuse?

Or what is my excuse? I do not have one as I am still on my journey and can see the white lines and if I hit a bump will go back between and follow through to the finish line.

So the top quote “I think I can” is my belief for every one of my goals and when I achieve it will be replaced with “I though, I could”

This, my friends is the beauty of the Law of Attraction; ASK, BELIEVE & RECEIVE.

Next blog will bring you up to date with my journey before I tackle some more heavyweight subjects.

Ciao x

Love Part 1

"Approach both love and cooking, with reckless abandonment" - Dalai Llamha

"I am not going to tell you how to love or be loved, as you get a different genie every time that lantern is rubbed " - Scroobious Pip

Love.......................

A couple of days ago my daughter Lilith, took her first steps, this overjoyed me and clapped her achievement whooping uncontrollably, she didn't understand but was happy about the validation and she thought it was due to her previously attacking the television, so she did it again!

That is a memory that will validate my unconditional love for my daughter, a love we all have inside us.

Now to explain love, the love above is a combination of Heart + Soul x Commitment = Unconditional Love. This never needs explaining and is just is as my belief in my daughter is without fear or question.

I do want to talk about is the other Love or the equation of Heart + Soul + Body x Commitment = Love.

Now although this is being approached by using the Einstein method of explanation, it is all my thoughts and you can take it or leave it, laugh at it or just read it!

Heart

A powerful muscle favouring the left side of the chest that pumps blood around your body, that blood is oxygenated from the gaseous exchange that takes place from breathing (controlled via Co2). The blood is carried away from the heart by arteries and they flow back via Veins.

This organ has nothing to do with love but off course when love is lost can be the organ that fails as its the supposed life force.

In this instance the Heart will be the metaphor for the one thing that everyone alive does have, so everyone who has a heart has the ability to love. It is the building block, the foundation that we all build upon. No Heart = No life.

Soul

I have read that several years ago that when a person died a physician weighed a body before and after death to calculate the weight of the Human Soul. I understand the concept that energy cannot be created and destroyed it is and always will be, and that quantum physics has explained this fact. (Dr Fred Alan Wolf for additional reading)

The soul or lets just for kicks call this spirit, I believe that this is what we call DESIRE, the soul could be your moral compass that guides you. I also know that we CHOOSE our behaviour so the soul must be the MIND so lets for arguments sake call the soul Spirit + Desire + Mind = Soul.

The soul is incomplete and is always looking for stimulation or to find its match or some cases its direct opposite.

The direct opposite although can be attracted when the desire and Mind does not love itself. WHAT!!! I am saying now that the Soul is responsible for loving you, YOU have to love YOU.
(You have to forgive yourself, so you can fall in love, get on with your life and be free)
This is what your soul is for, its purpose its primary objective. Once it has achieved its primary objective then it can move towards its secondary objective which is searching for its mate, its likeness the last piece of the puzzle.

Souls are magnetic and once two are together they magnet become more powerful.

Body

We all have carnal desires, the need to pro-create is our most basic instinct especially with the male half of the species and the desires of the body will make any man spin a line they mean or don't mean with only the vision of capturing that body.

This is not just limited to the male species, despite propaganda. Lets just say that when cave woman was walking past cave mans nice new cave, was she surprised that she got banged over the head with a club?

I heard a fact the other day that in the balance of life with all species that the Female is more likely than not be the aggressor. I think evolution is favouring that fact.

The body is a vital part of the love equation as it the vessel which maintains the soul, it increases desire it keeps the mate from not leaving and has its primary objective to maintain a life long monogamous relationship.

Commitment

Does this matter? of course as the Heart is the building block the desire to be with that person and the validation of the need for the body can only be held together and circled by commitment. Every civilization ever recorded has a commitment between a Man and a Woman, man and a man and woman and a woman.

The ring does symbolise the commitment and the love from the Heart + Body + Soul. The ring is a symbol and even when "Marriage" is not carried out a symbol of commitment has always been exchanged.

So why does it go so wrong for so many people?

Lets dismiss the heart as that is a constant and start looking at the soul.

Love has forever been lost mainly due to just not being able to communicate, allow me to use a great metaphor. Have you seen the comedy film "The Mystery Men"? well there a character in the film who has a superpower. His power is the invisible man, there is a catch though as he can only become invisible if no one looks at him. Think about that for a moment.

You can have all these thoughts in your head but without communicating them how can you attract your soul mate? Thoughts of course control your actions (Mike Dooley "thoughts become things!".

In my experience this is how I lost 50% of woman in my life, although this will be explained more later.

Next explanation as to how it goes wrong is because of your thoughts, and will start by explaining this as over thinking!

There is visualisation and there is over thinking, the law of attraction teaches you that you should ASK, BELIEVE and RECEIVE. Over thinking causes you to question everything and could lead to what is known as jealousy.

You partner kisses you goodbye as they leave for work, this one day they are in a rush and shout goodbye as they fight to get to work on time. There are some of you who will take this as a sign "are they mad at me?" "what have I done?" "is this relationship breaking down?" "Are they gonna to leave me?" or "They have been seeing a lot of that person from work?" "who was that on the phone?". Sounds familiar..............................

Lets just say that over thinking leads to more break ups, the jealously, the paranoia, the low self esteem and guess what!!!! you attract more of it?

I will admit it, on occasion I have been jealous and my imagination painted a sordid, in detail, blow by blow, paranoid fantasy that of course resulted in a confrontation and the end of the relationship. There is many personal experiences that you all have had with similar or probably more extreme outcomes.

Over thinking is the direct opposite of the Belief side of the Law of Attraction, you could even call it faith or the commonly known noun, Trust.

This is the one thing that will let you grow is belief but trust in your beliefs. Your instincts your natural ability to love, procreate and be abundant.

So lets talk about the body, there is one thing that I know for sure and from experience has made me and countless men, most commonly known as bastards do what they do.

This statement is from The Karma Sutra and Vatsyayana says "men are apt to despise things that are too easily acquired"

To build love you need Heart, the soul has to have time and if you move straight to pleasures of the body then natural reaction with be for the other person to be despised. This is due to mans primal instinct to find a suitable mate and due to being weak in Mind (soul) he over thinks and believes that the female will do this with everyone she meets so his final conclusion is to not allow any further connection.

I think that alcohol, which has been imbibed since the dawn of time has reduced clarity of thought at anytime desires of the body or position of the moon stir our natural inclination towards pro-creation.

I do have a theory as to why love also is not found and we need to go back to my Darwin and The Theory of Evolution & Natural Selection.

The above is something that we probably do not have awareness of and the universe is showing us that maybe this is not the life partner for us.

I will give you my first example, and this is the most common way love is lost with the young and maybe not so young.

Close you eyes...err no open them up sorry, wait for the audio version of this blog. Just imagine the metaphor that two people start as two seeds and grow into shoots, they share roots, share nutrients and rely on each other to survive they need each other and feel each other needs and the soul confirms this need against the foundation of the heart.

There is a time when the shoots bloom and requires something else to survive, but flowers grow up as one and they find there own route to the sun and that's exactly what they have done, they have grown up separately too.

This however hard it is to understand and however painful it is to hear it is merely evolution, your souls just grow apart, you are not one any longer and together you are not strong.

However deep the above is there is just the idea that some people are not suited too each other and this is the whole purpose of the equation as the Universe it about balance and true love cannot have no opposites and is the merging of two beings into one.

Heart + Soul + Body = Commitment.

Of course there are countless examples when I am wrong, my favourite is that when people state that we are not married but we don't need to have a piece of paper to show our commitment. That is the most beautiful commitment of all as each others souls have validated that. My point precisely.

There is the question as why people stay in abusive relationships, well there strength will be gained when they have forgiven themselves. The primary function of the soul is self validation and self love.

I placed the Dalai Llamha quote up about reckless abandonment as surely with everything I have said, just go for it anyway!!

Summary

• Love yourself first
• Take it slow and love will grow
• Build desire by denying the flesh (not too long, just long enough)
• Make a commitment

The above is just my first thoughts and meanderings for my second book and would appreciate your feedback.

A lot of my blog has been borrowed from a song called "Look for the Woman" which if you want to hear click this link. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqnKbdqjh2I

This week I will bring you all up to date with my journey.

Future Blogs will include subjects such as; Social Conditioning, Religion V's Faith and the topic of my first book "The Fear Ceremony"

Love, peace and hair grease! xxxxxxxx

Journey to my Success Part 2

"Always have the feeling I could never be the villain, because the villain in the films were always back lit" - Scroobious Pip

The year is 2006, for those of you who know me it is quite obvious that I have missed something out, but will be addressing that in my 3rd post.

Anyway..............................

The Law of Attraction is a funny thing and when understood your past behaviours become clear. One thing is clear that I had an interview for a great job, the top one in my company and decided that I was going to take it and be successful, the point was that I was the only one who knew that.

I went for the interview and was supremely confident (this faking it before making it works), in my mind I had the job and my behaviours all led to me being the ideal choice.

So after this what did I do next? well the answer is NOTHING, I let it go....

The above is important and although I did not understand the significance of it at the time but guess what? two days later I received a call and was offered the job and wait for it! a whole £20k increase in pay...

I still had my financial situation from the previous post but my behaviours have led to me attracting more money more wealth. I had no money to buy a ticket for my first month but borrowed what I could and started work. For the first month I worked hard but with no money I did not eat out for the first month or during the day, I couldn't take a packed lunch as it went bad due to the length of my commute but it did not matter.

The law of attraction tells us to ASK, BELIEVE & RECEIVE or Vision, Plan and Performance but this happened faster than I thought.

I was on a roll, right? NO!

If you are to "go on a roll" this usually means gathering momentum but what I recognise now made a fatal error... I though I'd made it!

The first few months were exciting and adrenalin kept me going but having endearing qualities and what was to become a cynical outlook on life would steer me towards difficulties.

To put it into context the behaviour that I developed was similar to what you witness from the City Boys the stockbroker the whole "Masters of the universe" mentality. This consisted of spending the day bitching, complaining, putting others down. It was not even with a select few it was myself being the fulcrum between two waring parties.

My reading matter changed to such novels as Machiavelli "The Prince" to Sun Tzu "The Art of War", sure other books were read but not for the intent of doing good but for one up man ship and not for the purpose intended.

Let just put this out there, I behaved like a cock!

Lets clear things up, my shadow cast for all my peers showed me in that light, but had a different persona within my team which was totally opposite a total dichotomy, which caused my inner conflict.

My career started very well, the results were initially achieved by me being bullish but could not be maintained. So the Law of attraction kicks in and guess what I attract? more of the same.

How did I break that cycle? well not one person challenged my behaviour not one!

One by one peoples behaviour in my peer group caused them to not be in there positions no more so what changed?

Did I become more reflective, well the answer is, Johnnie!

Johnnie is my son first and foremost, without any debate, he has a condition called Aperts Syndrome, it is usual that at a certain age a procedure is to be carried out that removes the top part of the skull from the cranium and leave spaces in between so that the brain can grow inside. This is called a vault expansion. (put back after of course, d'oh!)

Johnnie in the March was scheduled for his operation at Great Ormond Street Children's Hospital in London.

I don't think words can really describe the emotions of that day but carrying him down to the operating theatre in my arms with him laughing and giggling is a feeling that will stay with me forever. The sight of his Mum (Julie) holding him as they anesthetist placed the gas over his mouth and gently placed him to sleep was a tough thing to see.

We were led back onto to the children's ward by the nurse to await the outcome of the Operation and found the experience so traumatic that I had to walk two steps behind.

My eyes welled up and my body shook uncontrollably and fought with the emotion as I had to remain strong, I knew that my pain and anguish was selfish and that Johnnie WILL be OK, however we can all reach a point in our lives were the course of our journey can change at a split second.

That second, every remembers that second you are at a multiple crossroads with insanity the destination alone the majority of paths and as quick as you at that point of panic the quickness of the decision is vital.

Some people let it out, explode in rage or in emotion, but I had to suck up every piece of pain, anguish and fear throbbing violently in my body looked dead centre and concentrate on walking .

I heard Jack Canfield explain this in some way in the film "The Secret" and the metaphor reminded me of this feeling, maybe not verbatim but the gist of the story was that life as a journey is like travelling down a highway at night with the headlights on, sure the headlights only show the next two hundred yards and life is really like that.

In times of stress you can only see the next two hundred yards as in every journey, but do we really need to? this could be describe as Baby Steps!

Julie spent the whole operation reading a Jo Brand book and in her mind she decided that she had already ASKED for Johnnie to be OK, she BELIEVED in it and just waited to RECEIVED.

I just read discarded beauty magazines and the only thing I took out of it was knowing more about Kerry Katona and the secret life of Katy Holmes. I also had a random book called "Why do penguins feet freeze" random facts that will have no use to me.

I developed a siege mentality and this was due to my social conditioning and when things did not go right in my life was the behaviour that was the most likely outcome. (Social conditioning is a future blog)

The Operation was a success and Johnnie was fine so much in fact that the very next morning he ate the entire breakfast that I brought in for me and Julie and did some serious damage to the Jaffa Cake population of the world. (See Pics)

Johnnie recovered fully and is doing great.

Here was a child who had the top part of his head removed been in surgery for countless hours and upon awaking was at first bewildered but was happy, giggling, stuffing his little monkey face and generally enjoying life!

So what was my excuse? NONE I had no excuse whatsoever. What surprised me was the total compassion showed to me by my Manager and my colleagues and even though I had acted like a dick unconditionally supported me.

I was not going to use my social conditioning as an excuse any longer.

So what was next for me? well I retreated into myself and completely lacked vision. I did not even know what I was going to do when I walked into work, there was zero planning.

My stress levels were very high and was feeling quite ill.

The universe (my metaphor for God) did guide me and show me a way to resolve my issues, I was introduced to Kinesiology. I had hoped that seeing the Kinesiologist would help me with my ill feeling, little did I know.......

I made a decision and went to see her half expecting a wrinkly Mystic Meg character who smelt of Cats, but was surprised to find a woman of similar age to myself and basically normal!

The letting go part happened within 5 minutes of the session starting, you just have to let go. The admittance of being quite ill was hard to admit and lots of healing had to take place. Personal issues had to be resolved and finally the coup de grace my intolerance to Wheat & Cheese.

I admit it now, when I arrived home my eyes welled up with tears as the kinesiologist did say that this is my true beginning to my journey. I can count on one hand the amount of times that I have cried in the last 25 years;

1. Optimus Prime dying in Transformers the Movie
2. My first real Girlfriend dumping me
3. My first long term relationship ending (not well) with lots of debt (see First post)
4. Kinesiologist healing my life time of pain

In reflection and reference to my opening quote, no one ever thinks they are the bad guy because of there circumstances does not show it. The metaphor of "Back lit" means that you cannot see your own shadow so how can you be aware of how you are perceived.

I am no longer back lit......................

My next post is all about Love and will bring you closer to NOW so that is why some people have been left out especially a little bat girl. The next post is going to be the premise of my second book which will be the definitive explanation of Love.

Thank you for your comments either on Face book or the Blog, do not feel sorry for me as I have totally forgiven myself and concentrate on the future.

I write this blog to help me develop my writing style and emotional content for my dream to become a novelist so bear with me.

Journey to my success Part 1

"If you cant forgive and forget, then how's this? forget forgiving and accept that's it! "- Scroobious Pip

This blog is about my journey to the attraction of wealth into my life, to attract all of my goals and finally my dreams. All of which will be shared with you over the coming months, I will get there!

I was inspired to write this blog about my journey because of something simple that I noticed yesterday which gave me inner peace.
The United Kingdom has been battered by snow, ice and rain and I stepped out of the car and noticed in between the ice and snow on a patch of grass a shoot from a daffodil starting to force its way through.
This struck me as a poignant in explaining my journey and gave me an epiphany that every year this flower starts the same way and regardless of the conditions will always try to grow. The flower each time may be better than last year or it may be worse but it will always go through the cycle.
This could be applied to each one of our lives and maybe if we seek the sun we will grow organically, but the equilibrium of the universe means that we need the rain to nourish us and the snow is a warning that it is too early to flourish and we may die.

Surely life cannot be this simple, but of course it is!

I will try not to bore you too much with my personal life and circumstances but will start of the beginning of my journey and hope that you can find similarities and guidance for getting round the roadblocks.

2004-2005

It was late in the year and was about one month into my new job as a Cluster Manager for a well known hotel chain, it was a new experience to me as previously worked for my past employer for 13 years which was most of my adult life. I was with my peers but of course was "fronting it" I had know idea what I was doing or how I was going to do it. (Later this will be revealed to me as Faking it before making it).
I attended a meeting, which was the first one with my peers and overheard someone talking about a book they read called "Who moved my cheese" and it talks about handling change in your life.

This was relevant to me as a few months previously a long term relationship that I was in ended pretty badly, I was left to pick up all of the pieces including a mortgage bills and an ever increasing debt. I was at my lowest ebb, head buried firmly in the sand and did not know where to turn. I had to sell the house, arrange the debts and get out of the situation. The phone calls increased about payment and the situation was desperate. In the midst of all this front has to be firmly in place but without travelling down that African river Denial.

The turning point came after about fifty sleepless nights, hundreds of hours of watching pointless Television to block out my reality, the endless stream of debt consolidation commercials begging me for there business (my cynicism is a strong point of mine), I made that call.

So who did I call? well the National Debt helpline and explained them my situation, the guy on the phone was my angel he did not judge me and told me one thing and that was that my priority was the pay utilities and that anyone who I owed unsecured debt to was not to be paid and that I was to advise them that unless they accepted my offer of a repayment plan that I will consider insolvency. The confidence and the power this gave me back, transformed my life. The preceding phone call to the newly monikered "Creditors" was good and felt that all of there threats were now to no avail and they resided themselves to now helping me.

So what changed?

I no longer had FEAR! and no longer was going to be a VICTIM! I have always had this power but it took something of this magnitude to bring me back.

In reflection and to quote Bob Proctor "If you have debt just set up a debt repayment programme and thing about wealth generation, if you think debt you attract debt"

So back to meeting, now the book that I read was by a guy called Dr Spencer Johnson, and it was called "Who moved my cheese?" I listened to to my peers and the next day went to Waterstones and purchased it. How about that for action!

The book lit a fire inside of me, I had already been exposed to teaching of Edward De Bono and Tom Peters but this was different. The parable and the metaphors which can be adapted for your own personal circumstance resonated within me and my mind spun, spun with what I can do, what I can achieve.

Something also validated the story of "cheese" and that came in the unlikely guise of the film "Donnie Darko" which the part where he is speaking with the psychologist talking about god and the conclusion that he is agnostic.

This is the point of the quote on the opening line...

I did change, I did begin to just accept things and moved to Colchester from a 3 bedroomed country house to a one bedroom flat in Colchester. The date was 7/7/2005 bad Juju went down that day! my thought will always be with those who lost there lives.

Little did I know that my new theme tune would be "London Calling"

Next blog........ coming next week will talk about 2006 as predictably my newly found knowledge stalled.